Sometimes

We have to take a break from the outside world

In the aspect of the every day

Hustle and bustle

The routine

The monotony

This is something my therapist shared with me

I’ve honestly heard it over and over again

And still decided to isolate myself from the world

Outside of the required interactions

I feared being “crossed”

I feared being judged

I feared not “fitting in”

I decided to give the outside world another “chance”

I realized it wasn’t about the external forces

I learned it was truly about me

How I felt after engaging in my hobbies

The idea of meeting amazing

Kind people in the process

I realized that I had allowed my ego

To get the best of me

I was holding myself back

Based on my own irrational fears

The constant “what if’s”

That I managed to turn into

“What if it’s amazing”

“What if I have fun”

“What if I meet cool people”

Half of the battle for me

Is working up enough energy

To step out of the “funk”

To muster enough courage

To kiss my egos and fears goodbye

Of course

This is a work in progress

But

We only move forward if we

Put the work in

And meet our destiny half way