Being still is one of the hardest things for me to do-figuratively and literally. It seems that I always have to have something “to do”… to engage in… to analyze… and ESPECIALLY to think.
How does one become present with a million and one thoughts?!? Even if I am physically quiet, my mind is screaming thoughts at an unusually rapid pace. I even find myself struggling when I have alone time. There are so many distractions such as music and YouTube. Even when I go outside in nature and admire it’s beauty. The thoughts continue to race… I ask for guidance to overcome this hurdle 🙏. This too shall pass…
Do you share similar experiences? What works for you?
I’ve been on a mini hiatus for some time for a combination of things. Some of the days- I felt a bit blue. Other days- my “creative juices” weren’t flowing much. A few days- I honestly just wasn’t inspired to write about much. As the old saying goes… if you don’t have anything nice to say- don’t say anything at all.
I am also more mindful that I’m an impactful individual. Therefore, I try to refrain from acting from a place of “uncertainty”… at least in this instance. Nevertheless, I am here and all is well 😀. I take the good with the “bad” and vice versa. All of the experiences are well needed (and greatly appreciated) for my evolution 💖
As I have mentioned before- I am heavily interested in astrology and how it impacts our lives. I’ve been conducting my own research to better understand myself and how to consistently evolve. What I am about to show you… I CAN’T make this up 😂😂😂
I came across an article which details how to get on track with my life’s purpose based on the planetary placements in my birth natal chart. The last line blew my ENTIRE mind🤗🤗🤗.
This “Bigger Than Me Movement” started as an idea less than a year ago. A SIMPLE IDEA!!! In which I would have NEVER imagined it would be a part of my life’s purpose- in the “official” sense. The passion had always been there to “make a difference in people’s lives”; however I NEVER knew it was “officially” one of my major life’s goals before I even entered this physical realm. Let’s just say I’m on target and I’m just getting started 😎
Please share your thoughts😀
Life has been “different” lately. Approximately two months ago I experienced a COMPLETE emotional breakdown🤯. I had to retreat from everything I loved (and thought) I loved. I even had to take a two week leave of absence from work🚶♀️. The whirlwind of emotions hit me HARD and UNEXPECTEDLY🌪. I felt like a COMPLETE wreck.
I can’t lie- I wanted to throw in the towel for so many reasons. I wasn’t suicidal; it was more like I was tired of being EVERYTHING- to EVERYONE, but myself. I was tired of placing myself last on the list for EVERYTHING! I believe I learned this at a young age. “Cater to everything for everyone”. “Earn your keep- even if it costs you your own peace”😏. I was taught that was the way of life. I wasn’t living a “fulfilling” life if I didn’t do all of the above🥺.
I’ve learned my breakdown was in fact a BREAKTHROUGH💖! My soul was breaking through while screaming… “Here I am… Please listen to me…Please get to know me… Please allow me to help you”. I didn’t quite understand it at the time. I just took it as I was crazy- because that’s what people will quickly tell you. It was at that point when I realized it WASN’T about people… it was about ME 😍.
I began to care less about what people thought of me. This was challenging as I had been a “people pleaser” my entire life. I started to think “What do I like”… more and more… “How does this make me feel”… more and more… I even found myself saying a few times… “screw who doesn’t like it 😂😩😎”. I was learning how to FEEL and SPEAK my truth. My truth was foreign to me for 35 LONG years.
I am finally learning to value me. It’s funny because I’ve always “underestimated” myself and my abilities. People would express that I am great at this or that, but I always took it as nothing special- I’m just like everyone else. I AM equal to everyone else; however, I have MANY MANY gifts and I am finally learning to embrace them.
I thought I was “weird” because I was “different”. That’s not true…My “different” are blessings and gifts in which I am truly grateful for. I have been receiving A LOT of recognition lately for these various gifts. I finally believe, feel, and know what I am truly capable of. I am aware of my positive impact on others. No longer do I “downplay” it. I welcome and embrace it all as I express gratitude 🤗.
All of this is to say- I’ve been through the storm OVER and OVER again. I’ve been overlooked and last OVER and OVER again… I’ve been used and abused (by self and others) OVER and OVER again. Those things NEVER defined me!!! They only built up my character for the consecutive wins on the ships that are arriving 🛳 (as I type). My future is extremely bright✨ You will read (and hear) all about it in due time.
Just remember- we will ALL reap the rewards of our blood, sweat, and tears… As long as our intentions are good and pure 💖. Just be patient and remember… We have worked way too hard just to be mediocre. Everything is working itself out behind the scenes. Things will be revealed in divine timing✨