Let me tell you
About my new found hobby
Astrology
Not where I’ve been
But where I gotta be
The devil came in
And tried to blind me
Deny me
From seeing what’s inside of me
The divine in me
That light that shines in me
I gotta leave the past behind me
No more doing time for crimes
That’s not me

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I am making a conscious effort to set annual goals. The intent is to look back (the following year) and say to myself… WOW… I really overcame that… While I was “in it” (the moment)… I never imagined making it out. The intent is to grow stronger with each challenge… The intent is to look at life from a different perspective- each time… The intent… is to inspire & empower others to stand in their power… As I am learning to stand in mine✨

All of this to say- I overcame A LOT of obstacles last year (around this time). I knew I would be defeated… BUT… through my spirit team, faith, patience, perseverance, dedication, and much more… I overcame those battles which were set to “take me out”.

I stand here today… with a new set of challenges… in which it is difficult to see the light. I will say… I am looking forward to my yearly overview (next year)… Because my spirit team, faith, patience, perseverance, dedication, and much more hasn’t let me down yet💖

To be continued…

I am experiencing a major transformative phase in my life right now. I’m not going to lie… It hurts… really bad… to the core… Its uncomfortable as hell… Often times- I don’t know which way to go… Or even how to proceed. There have been a lot of “down” days lately. I will say… having alone time allows one to be an observer… just “chillin’ in the cut”.

I am grateful for this timed opportunity because I am able to look at things from a different perspective. A clear perspective… not a biased perspective… or what I fantasize it to be. A light bulb clicked today as my mind raced with so many unasked and unanswered questions.

I gave myself a “death sentence”. You may think… “wow… that sounds a bit extreme”. The reality… IT IS. Let me break it down… I never forgave myself for many of the mistakes I’ve made in life. It’s like I hold a gun to my head and heart. I overcompensate based on the guilt I feel within. My expectations are too high for myself. I am human… I’m going to make mistakes… I am not perfect.

More times than not… I like to hold myself accountable for my actions. I also like to identify solutions to prevent situations from occurring again. However, it doesn’t just stop there… I hold the mistake over my head… and allow others to do the same… I acknowledge… This is not right… nor fair. It ends here…

I am human.. I will make mistakes… It is a part of life. I can’t give others a “pass” while refusing to give myself one. My mistakes are opportunities to learn something new- that simple. No longer will I beat myself over the head for “not knowing better”. I forgive ME… I will show compassion to and for myself.

I just connected the dots that this is a childhood wound. It is now ready to be healed ✨. When I was a child- I was verbally, mentally, emotionally, and even physically abused for making mistakes. My child self felt SO LOW… I literally just felt the heaviness as I typed that… I allowed others to add to that low feeling… I accepted the abuse… It was a natural response to be abused as a result of making a mistake.

To make matters worse… I did everything in my power to be seen (and treated) in “good grace”. Rarely was that the outcome… rather… Others took advantage of my low esteem and used it for their benefit. This is toxic behavior that I have carried into adulthood… Over and over again… I acknowledge this behavior does not serve me.

I RELEASE IT!!! I forgive myself for… being human… making mistakes… learning new things… not having it all figured out… I FORGIVE ME… I treat myself with love and compassion. I attract those who treat me with forgiveness, love, and compassion.

Thanks for reading✨

There are some moments in life when things seem to happen “out of the blue”. It can hit us when we least expect it. We often are unable to put in to words HOW and WHAT “just happened”. Words of wisdom that I’m learning now ~ DO NOT FIGHT IT.

More often than not… That is the way things should be. No matter how much we “cry, kick, or scream”… DO NOT FIGHT IT. The “Divine” is at work- IN and FOR our lives… For our highest and greatest good. Spirit knows us better than we know ourselves. Spirit knows when we hold on for the sole reason of COMFORT. However, comfort is NOT where we grow.

Our soul evolves when we accept… What was… What is…And maybe even what “could be”. Our soul evolves when we embrace change over comfort. Our soul evolves when we begin to accept reality- opposed to fantasy and imagination.

The goal should always be evolution on this spiritual journey we call “life”. We make things much easier on ourselves when we “go with the flow” of spirit… Not the limited perception of our ego. I repeat…

#DoNotFightIt

It amazes me

How things work… behind the scenes

Our wildest dreams

So sweet

Like vanilla bean ice cream

They become a reality

The seeds from the apple tree

Conquered the catastrophes

I really hope you’re proud of me

From sea to shining sea

I’m trying to be

All that I can be

Far beyond my reach

As I practice what i preach

This is the end

But this is where it begins

Consecutive

Win after win

Proud like Uncle Ben

Let’s preserve this hidden gem 💎

Feels like I flicked the switch

Flipped the script

What is this

Why am I doing it

It was passed down

With the same frown

Tied and bound

Playing the same sound

This can’t be life

There’s got to be more

I’m ready to bust through doors

I don’t care who they’re for

I know for sure

I’m creating a cure

The new mindset galore

Because the boxed one is manure

If I don’t… Who will…

We’ll just continue to pass the pill

Selflessly front the bill

If emptiness could kill

Oh, but it does

If we continue to recreate what it was

Especially if it’s “just because”

Are you willing to be that…

– Diamond in the Rough?!?

I was awakened in the middle of the night and decided to engage in my favorite 🙈- YouTube. A random video was displayed on the screen. The title was- “Please see before deleting” 🤔- I thought. I’ll give it a try. I am soo lucky I did 💖

Background info- I am experiencing a spiritual awakening. This experience is different for everyone- to say the least. There have been many ups and downs since my spiritual journey has begun. I’ve faced many difficulties in shifting perspectives regarding my whole life. Things I learned… was taught… was told…You have to do it this way… That way won’t work…This is how it’s supposed to be… That’s the ONLY way… 🤔🤔🤔 FALSE!

I had to get real with myself and implement change in various areas of my life. Some known… others unknown by others. I continue to make adjustments. Some people understand what I am experiencing- while others don’t have a clue (which is okay). They often think I’m losing my mind- when in fact… I’m learning how to think on my own… and not live my life as a “zombie”.

To be honest- it kind of hurts when those close to you don’t understand you. I struggle between trying to “state my case” with logical facts… and “it’s not even worth the time… nor energy” 😞.

Today was one of those days when I felt I had to “justify” my recent actions. I know I don’t have to prove anything to anyone. That little girl just took over as she wanted to be accepted- not “outcasted”… 🚘🛑 -pump the brakes… Lesson learned- I don’t owe anyone an explanation for my actions. Rather… I pick and choose who deserves it as a courtesy.

Anyways… back to YouTube…

I do not own rights to the materials referenced in this post.

https://youtu.be/u36_Es1oTTo

This video was sooo on point for me- especially considering the day I had. In summary, I came here as an old soul… with a purpose… to elevate my own consciousness… and elevate the vibration of those around me. I must shift my perspective and release much of the old paradigm in which I… my… parents… ancestors… were raised on. Understand me when I say it is WORK!!! Lol. It’s also rewarding 💖.

Nevertheless, the video was encouraging… inspirational… a simple reminder that things will work out… I signed up for this… I can most definitely made for THIS. Now… for the synchronicities… the video was liked 222 times✨ Miracles are manifesting as you co-create with the universe… I noticed the 222 at 12:12 (video timestamp)✨ An acknowledgement of spiritual growth and the angels are working on my behalf💖 The message itself was VERY synchronistic 🦋

Moral of the story… Be true to self and your mission… Don’t feel pressured to convince someone to see your perspective… and last, but DEFINITELY not least- Spirit works in mysterious ways as they drop hints to us… we just have to “pay attention”😎. Have a wonderful day, night, and week 🌈.

I want a career I love… a career that makes me smile as I think about it. A career that makes me feel eager and accomplished- day and night. A career that provides me with the opportunity to use my God given skills and talents. A career that makes me smile as I tell others what I do for a living. A career that allows me to have fun… and BE MYSELF… A career where people feel my passion through simple word of mouth… and just being in my presence. A career that is meaningful and I KNOW I am making a difference…Some may think- that doesn’t exist… and that’s okay for you to feel that way. However, I beg to differ….

Mission initiated 🎬😎✨